Friday, 30 May 2014

Happy 2nd birthday to my sweet Halle

You came into this world like a bull in a china shop. At 11:53pm, All 8lb 1.5oz of you came Fast, strong and full of character from that very first moment I laid my eyes on you. 

{a few minutes old}


Two years ago today I was in a very bittersweet phase of my life. I was ever so excited and couldn't wait you meet you, but at the same time, I was also grieving the absence of your daddy.  The night you were born was something so special, not only was it the day you arrived, but it was one of those moments where I realised how strong I actually was, physically & mentally. I had huge doubts i was going to be able to cope throughout the labour, knowing Daddy would miss it, I was scared that i was facing raising you and your sister alone for a while & I just didn't know what I was capable of. you & your big sister made me realise this. I have always been someone who hasn't been confident in any aspect of my life. becoming a mother has taught me so much in these past 3.5 years,  You have all brought out the best in me (albeit the worst in me when I have had no sleep & haven't had time to feed myself! but thats a small factor!) 

All in all, It was a very difficult heart wrenching time but we all got through it together. 

The past two years seem to have flown by without a trace, That is of course why i treasure all of our memories, I love to try and document and preserve them all for us to look back on. You have grown so much its unbelievable, Your blonde hair is now turning into the cutest bouncy curls, your beautiful blue eyes are shining ever brightly, your cheeky smile & your infectious laugh are something i love to wake up to each morning. 

On the flip side, you have this new thing you do when you're feeling angry, cross, or I haven't s clue sometimes but this is......to blow snot out of your nose and smear it anywhere thats within reach. this includes the interior of our car, freshly made bedding, toys, your hair, your face - you name it. It is really gross, and it does make me quite cross sometimes as you love to do it whilst i'm driving - not helpful kiddo! I just put it down to developmental stages, some kids throw themselves on the floor, some just cry, some lash out... you blow snot. hopefully a soon to pass phase! 





I wish I could freeze time a little so I can bottle these years up and never let go, you, your big sister & little brother are all growing so fast & it scares me a little! Happy 2nd birthday my beautiful & completely bonkers 'Hallelujah', you make me ever so proud & I love you with all of my heart and soul. Mumma xx




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Tuesday, 27 May 2014

Lazy morning snuggles

Oh there's nothing better than snuggling up with your babies early in the morning under the toasty warm quilts, cup of tea in hand and just enjoying the calm before the day begins. 

Y-M started her preschool every morning so we always have to be rushing against the clock and it gets frustrating for all of us some days. That's the downfall about her preschool is that there wasn't any options for days (would have been handy when little fella was first born) it's all week, or nothing. But hey, it's half term now and we are embracing our free mornings to not have to rush about. 

The girls are snuggling, the sweet chap has gone back to sleep and tucked into my chest (he was fidgeting ALL night and letting ripp so he didn't get quality sleep... OR ME! :( ) sadly, I can't go back to sleep as I have my two girls to keep an eye in (did I mention that H is Really into squeezey lotion bottles?) but instead, I can revel in the lovely sight of my three amazing children...before the day begins of course. Then it's "how long until Peppa Pig" "mama, can I have some milk?" "mama, can I have breakfast", "can we do making now?" "Can we do baking now?" ;)
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Wednesday, 21 May 2014

Phoenix 16 weeks.

16 weeks ago today at 10:30pm, I gave birth to a beautiful baby boy, that boy is you Phoenix. 

You have growth so fast in these past 16 weeks, you are changing so much each day and are turning into a complete chatterbox who is loved so much by his big sisters. I feel so much joy with how they have adjusted to having another sibling, I was worried about "sibling jealousy" especially with H as she's that little bit younger, but she is ever so loving towards you. 

The morning after you were born and they came up to see us, I was very anxious as to how they would react, sad? Jealous? Angry? All three? But the first thing Halle did was say "hello mummy, I love you" and gave me a huge hug, and Yves came over to you straight away, gazed over the crib in amazement and said "is this our baby"? With the biggest smile spread across her face. Both were immediately wanting cuddles with you, and wanting to check you had a "winky".

You're also now really interested in grabbing your toys, chomping on your fists and shouting/cooing loudly. You're very much a Mama's boy at the minute which I love, I think it's really because you know I have the 'good's' and am known as 'milk lady' by Daddy, Ha. Bath time is a complete fun game for you right now as you love laying in the shallow water and splashing like crazy! 

Post bath-time, You're a snuggly bear and love to gaze up at me whilst feeding and guzzling away in content. Sleeping-wise, You're feeding roughly twice a night. It all depends on what we've done, where we've been etc. Your hair is very fair & slowly growing back, i'm sure you'll have a mop of it when you're a year old if you're anything like biggest sister! Your chubby cheeks and soft skin is so kissable, I just love to lay with you, smell your heavenly scent & just revel in amazement at how beautiful you are my boy. And lastly, You love to grab Mummy's face, and pull on my cheeks too! 

16 weeks already... You are a bundle of joy my little love, & I can't believe how fast you're growing! 


(Iphone pic) and once again, blogger has destroyed the colour!?



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Thursday, 15 May 2014

Kiddo clothing - recent finds

Here are my recent finds for my kiddo's clothing. 



I grew up listening to The Beatles, so I couldn't resist these!
(forgot to mention that the brand of shoes are Vans) 

I Love crochet, and photography. so these were a no-brainer! Vintage looking clothing is adorable, and girls clothes are great at the minute and the price is justified as they will all go down to H! 


I've seen some similar trousers floating around on Instagram and have been searching for them here in the UK. Found some, and I adore them!

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Tuesday, 13 May 2014

You've got to laugh or cry... Only human!

So this morning we had a slight meltdown. H asked for her milk, so I promptly ran downstairs to get it, along with my much needed cup of tea. I said to her to watch Peppa Pig for 2mins whilst i go down and not to wake Phoenix. I got downstairs - then heard her innocent little footsteps, ran back up to see her snuggling into a very fast asleep P (and also kind of massaging his head with her face which ruffled up his cradle cap - nice) I then pulled her off him as she was being a little too loving - not realising that I had got the wrong arm and actually got P's arm which then startled & woke him. doh. This then made me pee'd off as it makes the morning a lot stressful to get three kids and myself ready for the pre-school run (out the house by 8:20am).

 I then shouted at her for not listening (silly i know, she's only almost two! can you see i'm thinking with a much more level head now?) Then I felt terrible for telling her off (mum guilt) and felt even more terrible for over-reacting & lifting her off quick - waking P, when I could've just been a lot less-stressed & should have just been calmer. (Can you tell tiredness causes havoc).

Y-M then woke up all full of smiles and sat with P, I then thought 'it's gone quiet.... where has H gone now'? or more importantly WHAT is she up to now? - I went to the bathroom (which I stupidly forgot to lock) and what did I see.. She had only helped herself to my brand spanking new Elemis indulgent bath set and smeared the body lotion all over her hands, arms, face - the lot. I shouted and said it was very silly, as it got in her eyes. sent her to her room whilst I tidied it all up (and whilst my eyes filled with defeated tears and gutted as I was looking forward to using my 7day old cream) - I then sat back and thought..

She's almost TWO. She watches her Mummy putting on face cream so all she's really doing is exploring and mimicking me. It shouldn't be within their reach. (lesson learned) and also I then started to find it funny as all the little poppet was trying to do was copy her Mummy. (even though i'm gutted that there is hardly any of the lovely body lotion left) hey, at least she smells lush!


We then got to school, joined in the singing session, that the girls sang in front the whole class at the end - proud Mama alert - all the stress monsters inside me flew away, I embraced this sweet moment, and forgot the feeling of feeling like a failure as a Mum. 




I just think I need to stop hurrying about, even if I need to get Y-M to her pre-school. she's only 3.5. I am still questioning why I ever started her in Jan, when I had so much going on (toddler in tow, due to give birth, really?) and then the pre-school run in the wet weather we've had, with a newborn and toddler - fun. I spent a few weeks, feeling so overwhelmed and stressed that i was constantly racing against the clock each morning - horrible. It got easier, but who can predict mornings like this, involving face cream explosion, emotional battles all round, not having time to brush teeth, use a barbie brush to do Y-M's hair, kids eat breakfast on the go, i skip eating etc. 

I do need to remember that I will have mornings like this, and not to get torn apart by it, having mornings like this doesn't make me, or anyone a bad mum. it's natural! and to be honest (as i'm sat here with peace and quiet and feeling rather chilled - its quite funny and eventful now!) 



This was after the pre-school drop off having a swing, then I cleaned the dripping wet and full of puddles slide just for her to only sneak to the other dripping wet one whilst I was feeding Phoenix... I was feeling rather tranquil and just thought about my expectations again, this time realistic. she's almost two, puddles are way more fun even if it means your backside is soaked, in her mind puddles make good beverages too (yuk) and running wild with soaking clothes, messy hair, mud on her face is the way to act as a kid.


Children's exploration & freedom is to be embraced, not limited. (obviously subject to their safety)


We both needed this time to remember what its all about. Plus, zip wires are fab.

It then started to pour with rain, yeah we forgot the rain cover too...then went home, (Y-M was off to Blenheim Palace after pre-school with Granny today) I had my lunch made by H - home made pizzas, yummy! P slept, H then watched the much loved Frozen dvd, and fell asleep.


So anyone who's having a rubbish day, just take a breather, get out for some fresh air, and just. be. 
(or jump on a zip wire!)

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Monday, 12 May 2014

Siblings - May 2014

Recently I have come across some really wonderful blogs, one of those happens to be Dear beautiful
I am forever capturing lots of images of my life with my children, so I thought it would be very lovely to 'link up' to the 'siblings project'. 

So here I am (even if I am starting almost half-way through the year!) 

Here are my amazing three little wonders this month. 

The girls are very smitten with their baby brother, always wanting cuddles, they love talking to him and offering him his blanket or 'snuggie duck'. They've been fantastic the last 15 weeks and have always shown love for him (perhaps a little too much at times from H! :-) ) now, I think its becoming more normal for them, and also for him to get use to having two girls who are full of beans a lot of the time! 
They find it really funny how he is interacting a lot more now, laughing, showing interest in their toys etc (I won't hear the last of it in a few months time when he's on the move & setting his eyes on their precious belongings!)

I adore watching their sibling relationship blossom. 

Y-M (3.5y) H (23m) P (15wk)


I am also going to be writing about my daughters and their sisterly bond, I have so much written on paper but I will re-cap and start a fresh :)


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Thursday, 8 May 2014

Hello 25!

Well I was up bright and early this morning to see my sweet childrens faces, and the girls brought up my birthday cake with help from their amazing Daddy. 
Yvie-Mae has been so giddy this morning, and said she will make me a birthday picture at preschool! 

We went downstairs to have breakfast, they had put banners up and lots of bunches of flowers around with Daddy, I love flowers! My Dad popped round with my card, another chocolate cake (oh dear more chocolate!) some much loved fudge, and a beautiful Elemis 'time for you' gift set - I love indulgent bath time, and even more so with relaxing products! He knows me well! 

I then did Y-M's pre-school run - in the rain (not so great but hey ho, you got to have flowers to grow May flowers!), came back home and had story time with Halle whilst little chap slept, picked Yve's up again - in the rain still, and came home to relax whilst the younger two slept! 

Don't you remember the excitement as a kid on the eve of each birthday? I remember getting my Mum's Argos catalogues making huge circle around every item I wished for, going to bed and not being able to sleep properly as I was so giddy, and then the morning came - opened the gifts and felt like the whole world knew it was MY day. Becoming a parent changes it in the way that I now look forward to seeing the excitement in their eyes, even when it is for my birthday. They get so excited! and I see it - the feelings I once had when I were their ages, happy feelings swirl around inside when I see their faces light up. I've had a brilliant day even though the day is just the same as yesterday and probably the same as tomorrow, but being treated to lovely gifts by everyone is really lovely, and that i'm thankful for too!

I look back and think about the past few years, the happy times, the tough times, the memorial times, and the ordinary times in between. and now i'm here, waking up on my 25th birthday as a mother to three beautiful children - I really am blessed. 

May is a special month as it's also H's birthday at the end of it, so to me thats what I get ready for, but having a sneaky birthday before hers isn't so bad now is it ;)

Some of my beautiful gifts

flowers & chocolates - my favourites 

We got to eat a *hot* three course meal whilst the girls were with their Nanny, & little P had a longggg nap! good lad! 

more beautiful flowers

Blowing candles out with my girls was lovely

My Dad does a personalised card every year :)

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Blog your heart out

I’ve been tagged by Letters to Elliot to take on the Blog Your Heart Out meme!
So what is the Blog Your Heart Out meme all about? It involves me answering five questions about blogging and then tagging a couple of bloggers to pass on the meme and keep the blog love going. Think of it as a modern day chain letter, just nicer!
So here goes:
Who/What encouraged you to start blogging?
I started blogging a personal page to go along side my photography page One Happiness Photography & Design. I always love to read other peoples blogs, some of my favourites are named here blogs i love. i especially love reading along came cherry, and mummy daddy me makes three, just because how much they are both passionate about the same things, I find the topics inspiring and its lovely to see that all us mums have a lot in common! My children are my muse, so above anyone else, they were my motivation to write the things I do. 

How did you choose what to blog about?
I started my blog to document my little children's lives, my life as a mother & everything in between. I usually keep a hand written diary at home, and a journal for each of my three children to give them when they grow up to be an adult! I'm also a very passionate photographer who loves capturing everything that way too so putting the two together was a no-brainer & something lovely for us all to look at together in years to come! I also blog to air my feelings, opinions and interests. I love to remember things, even if its a quiet day at home painting pots with the girls, documenting our adventures, i'm very passionate about breastfeeding & parenting too so thats one there! 

What is something most people don’t know about you?
Not a lot of people know that I blog, especially family & friends.

What three words describe your style?
My style... I love fashion, I adore anything vintage or handmade, quirky jewellery (including my turquoise & green amber rings). I love looking back through the decades from 1900-1990's and seeing the evolution of fashion/style itself - I find this very inspiring. I long for a simple life in the country, perhaps by the seaside, peaceful, & calm. I want to raise my children in a way that they value themselves, i want them to grow up knowing that they can do anything they set their mind to, that everything happens for a reason - even when times get tough. I believe that life passes us by way to fast, and we need to embrace it all. 

What do you love to do when you are not blogging?
I'm raising three children aged 3.5, 2 this month & 14 weeks. We have lots of fun, along with the challenging days but its more happy than not! We enjoy baking, making and just being silly really plus having the snuggly disney dvd days when we're feeling tired! I spend a lot of time breastfeeding my boy, trying to become more organised, and making plans for my blog/photography website. I love designing and creating handmade things, above it all - the best things i do are spending time with my little family, making sure its a happy home & that we're all feeling loved. :) 


So that’s a bit more about me, I tag


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Wednesday, 7 May 2014

Phoenix 14 weeks

My sweet boy Phoenix. You're 14 weeks old today, and you're growing into a very charming little chap. You've lost nearly all your newborn hair, your chub is growing day by day and your beautiful blue eyes get brighter by the minute. You love to chew on your hands and take an interest to more toys now. And have even joined the bumbo club - a bit skeptical at first but now you like it! 

I feel like we've finally got to the blissful part with feeding, it's a joyful and beautiful experience each time we share these moments together. Overcoming breastfeeding issues the past few months (not as painful as with YM but thrush - causing stabbing pain, latching, more emotionally draining, and not having enough time to concentrate on the issues where I have the girls to see to aswell.) you were also seeming to have a few colicky symptoms for a week or so but that's all gone now. I do think the main issue was that you were just finding your place and settling into out whirlwind of a family, especially having two wild big sisters who are on the go from the minute they wake! The only thing I think you're still adjusting to is your poop regulation! (Same as when YM was a baby!) she would literally have 'a Monday poo' and you're similar with your 1-2 poops a week resulting in you sometimes getting very gassy and grumpy with the tummy ache!

Back to the feeding.. I must say that My heart skips a beat when you look up at me when feeding, you seem so happy and content and just love to guzzle. Then once you're finished, you gaze up at me, let our a squeal or 'coo' as if you say "thank you!" It really is heart fuzzy happiness. 

You're also becoming a lot more durable for the girls to play (wrestle *cough*) with much to their delight! They find it hilarious!

I feel our special bond growing more and more each day my sweet boy, I feel ever so blessed to have you in my life. 

Mama x

                   

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Tuesday, 6 May 2014

Pizza making with kiddo's.

Some afternoons I find myself struggling for ideas for what to make for our lunch. On top of that i'm thinking "Well, what shall I make that they will actually eat, and for it not to end up on the floor or in the bin"... Don't get me wrong, they love their food, but i think as they grow and develop their own likes, dislikes, interests, opinions - they want to get fussy. So what better idea than to let them choose their lunch, getting them involved in the choosing of toppings, preparation of the food, and then letting them watch as their lunch is being cooked (also a great thing for them to see the cooking in the oven process!) and almost ready to nibble. 

These pizzas were just right. We chose wholemeal english muffins, ham, mushrooms and cheese. not that adventurous but definitely yummy. They really enjoyed the squeezing of the tomato puree! 

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Thursday, 1 May 2014

Waves goodbye to April

April sure has come and gone in a flash! This month has seen some highs & lows, a trip to Devon, deep thoughts and plenty of love. 

This is my last month of being a 24 year old. I honestly can't believe just how fast the last ten years or so have gone. Especially since leaving school, & even more so since having children. I'm a mother to three children yet I still feel like a fake when i refer to myself as an adult! I just have so many clear memories from my childhood, teens and early 20's that they literally could've been yesterday. I mean, I bumped into an old school friend the other week (who also has three lovely children with similar age gaps) and when I left the shop, I thought - Oh my goodness. Thats like 11 years I haven't seen her for! 11 YEARS - Where has that time gone? It seems just like yesterday we were using Johnson's baby lotion to moisturise our pre-teen skin, or climbing massive trees - and falling out of them (me), going to the shops for sweets, or arranging our next sleepover. It really hit me that time just doesn't wait for anyone, it's astounding how fast life is passing by. 

I look at my life since becoming a Mum and I just can't believe how much I've done, been through, the changes and growth in our family, all in 3.5 years. I look at Y-M and she just takes my breath away. she's turning into a little girl & no longer a baby or toddler. I look at H, and she is a feisty little girl who's also waving goodbye to toddlerhood & becoming a complete chatterbox who idolises her big sis. And then there is little P - who was 13 weeks old yesterday, He is really turning into a vocal little chap now, he loves interaction & is such a happy boy. All of these things make me feel so lucky, proud, (& a little emotional) I just want time to freeze

We've done plenty of crafting, & playing at the local parks.

Tiredness has also been present a bit too much recently. P is hitting a growth spurt, so he is guzzling his milk like 2hourly around the clock, He's a quick feeder so its not so bad, but broken sleep isn't helpful when you have three small kiddo's to tend to and entertain, & a daily pre-school run - yawn! I then have the tendency to take it out on Ty when he returns from work at the end of the day, mostly because I haven't spoken on an adults wavelength all day, or just the simple fact that i'm shattered, emotionally and physically drained. 

A positive for sure is that I feel that we've got to the "blissful" stage in our breastfeeding journey, I had quite an emotional time in the early weeks, with combined thrush, oversupply, and signs of colic. The pain wasn't half as bad as with Y-M but it has been more draining emotionally, just feeling that I wasn't doing a good job, and also struggling physically with my back (i have recti divarication in my tummy muscles that im slowly repairing which causes back pain), and probably because I have two other small children to see to, have so much going on (I thought it was a great idea all round if Y-M started preschool every morning at 8:30 when I was due to give birth & then with a newborn - Not fun in those first few months but we've got the hang of it now most of the time. So yes, I'm very happy that we've hit that milestone. 

My little sister also turned sweet 16 - it  seems just like yesterday that she was my little cling on at my sleepovers, or me pushing her around town in her pushchair, or watching barney with her on repeat. ergh. But she's blossoming into a lovely young woman who is a wonderful auntie to her nieces & nephew. 

Our Easter weekend was fantastic, we went away to visit my dear Nan in Seaton, Devon. The girls loved seeing their Great-Nan again (the last time was in February) & My Nan loved seeing how big P had grown. I'm in the process of writing my post on our weekend away!

Something else I want to make big changes to in May is to de-clutter & get more organised. more on that soon too... I want to be less mind full and more mindful. 

Hope you've all had a wonderful April just like I have & anything thats not been so good - pick yourself up, learn from it & live more & more tomorrow. 

[Here's Phoenix with Nanny M - My mum] xo



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